I know that I have been MIA. I’ve had a life circumstance that I have not wanted to discuss publicly. I am still unclear on when, if ever, and what, if anything, that I will want to share. What I will say, is that I’ve had a recent hospital stay (nothing for anyone to worry about, with any luck the situation has now fully been resolved. If you would like to send any kind of positive energy that that is in fact the case, it would be appreciated) and it’s got me thinking.

I’m feeling curious about communication. How much of what a person “hears” you say is only their interpretation? How much is what they actually heard you say? Your actual words?

During the interview with the doctor at the hospital, the one where they take the “history” of the presenting problem, I had mentioned getting my son breakfast. While looking through the after visit notes in MyChart, I saw that the doctor had written that I had said, “while pouring my son cereal”. I most definitely did not say that. My son has never even tried cereal. That is something that has met full on rejection at anyone’s suggestion. What I did do was put peanut butter and syrup on a chocolate pancake (Kodiak cakes) that his dad had just finished cooking and mixed up his electrolyte/multivitamin/magnesium/mineral concoction that we refer to as “juice”.

There were several other discrepancies too but none that stood out as so blatantly not what I said. I’m not upset about it, it’s not the doctor’s fault, this is how brains work, right? She heard getting breakfast, getting breakfast to her means cereal, in her memory her brain translated my words into pouring cereal, yeah? But it is a bit disturbing.

As someone who has been severely mistranslated in the majority of conversations I’ve had over my life (I’m not joking, nor being hyperbolic. If I’m not talking to someone who is very close to me, there’s a very good chance that I will be misinterpreted), I wonder how much of what we humans hear other people speak is our own translation? Also, I wonder if this is something that neurotypical humans are particularly bad at? Or maybe it relates to the double empathy issue? Like are neurotypicals more likely to mishear, i.e. hear through they’re own experience, a neurodivergent human? Vice versa? How do we take care not to misinterpret by interpreting through our own memories? How do we actually hear each other? Is it possible?

Thoughts? I’d love to hear them in the comments.