I sent this email to a former therapist of mine earlier…

“Hello, 

I know it’s been some time since I was in therapy with you but I’m feeling  the need to share with you a couple of recent revelations that have taken place in my life. I feel that knowing these things prior to engaging in therapy would have been helpful, and I wanted to share on the chance that they could possibly be helpful if you encounter similar clients in the future.

In the past couple of years, I’ve come to discover that my chronic illness was in part caused by chronic exposure to toxic mold. I’ve been diagnosed with mast cell activation syndrome. You had insinuated time and again that if I did more, I would be able to do more. I now have a four year old son. Raising my son has forced me to do a lot more and I became more and more unwell, the more that I had to do, until I ended up in the hospital. Without the mold piece I was never going to be able to progress further with my health. I’ve been out of the mold for about a year and a half and I am just now seeing real improvement. I’m able to eat regularly (not every few hours and through the night) and am beginning to tolerate heat a bit more. 

The other thing, I’ve recently been diagnosed with ASD. After realizing that my son was displaying some autistic traits, I did a lot of research and realized that it was likely that myself and many members of my family are autistic, prompting me to seek assessment. I don’t have a lot to say about this other than that I can now see how a lot of issues I experienced in therapy with you were due to my being undiagnosed autistic. It may benefit you(and most clinicians) to do a little research in order to gain a better understanding of autism and the myriad ways it can present. 

Thanks for you time,”

This therapist was incredibly helpful when I was working towards leaving my then husband. After that, not so much. Therapy with this therapist actually became harmful to me in many ways. This is just a reminder to anyone, if something doesn’t feel right to you in therapy, listen to yourself. You know you best. This is especially important, I think, for autistic people. If you have a non autistic therapist and they’re trying to treat you the way they would someone who is neurotypical, it very well may do you more harm than good. Look out for yourself. You matter.